I really tried but the pull of the scale finally got to me. I almost made it. The good news is that I am at 88 pounds lost now!!!!
Sorry to those that were praying for me. I really tried.
Have a great weekend,
God Bless,
Karen
Friday, May 30, 2008
Tuesday, May 27, 2008
I almost broke...
I just need to thank my friend, Lisa. She saved me from the dreaded scale tonight. I broke down and started to get on the scale. She pushed me off of it then when I stepped back up again she covered the readout and pushed me off again.
Thanks for saving me. I only have 6 days to wait for the official weigh-in.
By the way, Craig is really looking forward to torturing us starting next week.
God Bless,
Karen
Thanks for saving me. I only have 6 days to wait for the official weigh-in.
By the way, Craig is really looking forward to torturing us starting next week.
God Bless,
Karen
Thursday, May 22, 2008
The Males in my life
I just have to tell you about 2 of the cutest males anyone could have in her life. One of them has been praying for me for the last week. The second one talked all day about me yesterday and couldn't wait to see me at church last night. Okay, so they are 3 and almost 3 respectivally but hey, it is still pretty cool. What more could someone ask for!!! Two amazing toddlers that are still working on talking and somehow I have made enough of an impact to have them ask about me and pray for me.
Thanks Carter and Micah. I love you both very much.
God Bless,
"Aunt" Karen
Thanks Carter and Micah. I love you both very much.
God Bless,
"Aunt" Karen
Tuesday, May 20, 2008
It's a New Day
Didn't want to leave you all thinking that the defeatest attitude has continued. Between writing the previous post, talking to one lady at work, talking to a couple of ladies at the gym, Gretchen from Minnesota and more importantly, God, I woke up with a much better attitude this morning.
THANK YOU ALL WHO WERE USED BY GOD!!!!!
God Bless,
Karen
P.S. In a side note, I did not get on the scale tonight. One day down, 13 more to go. (I am trying to not weigh again until the day of the Biggest Loser)
THANK YOU ALL WHO WERE USED BY GOD!!!!!
God Bless,
Karen
P.S. In a side note, I did not get on the scale tonight. One day down, 13 more to go. (I am trying to not weigh again until the day of the Biggest Loser)
Monday, May 19, 2008
A defeatist's attitude
About 15 years ago I had started losing weight and had almost reached the 300 pound mark. I was a few pounds away. Then I gained it all back and an additional 50 pounds to reach my starting weight of this current journey.
Well, I am struggling again. I am almost at the 300 pound mark and today I told someone that mentally I just want to quit. I don't think I will but just having that feeling is really messing with my mind. I didn't do great again this weekend and have actually put on about 5 pounds. Instead of losing weight I am going backwards and it doesn't really take much for me to gain that weight.
One of the things I need to do is stay away from the scale. If I can do that until my birthday then maybe I will surprise myself.
Even trying on my "before" jeans and being able to take them off without unbuttoning them didn't excite me that much. Boy am I in a HUGE RUT.
Well, that's all since I don't want to cry at work and my eyes are tearing up from frustration.
God bless,
Karen
Well, I am struggling again. I am almost at the 300 pound mark and today I told someone that mentally I just want to quit. I don't think I will but just having that feeling is really messing with my mind. I didn't do great again this weekend and have actually put on about 5 pounds. Instead of losing weight I am going backwards and it doesn't really take much for me to gain that weight.
One of the things I need to do is stay away from the scale. If I can do that until my birthday then maybe I will surprise myself.
Even trying on my "before" jeans and being able to take them off without unbuttoning them didn't excite me that much. Boy am I in a HUGE RUT.
Well, that's all since I don't want to cry at work and my eyes are tearing up from frustration.
God bless,
Karen
Friday, May 16, 2008
Just touching base
It's funny how God can do something to stop a person from messing up. I was going for my daily walk/soda/end up with food run on Wednesday and as I passed my General Manager's office the HR Director came out and said that the admin and he were talking about me. I asked what about and he said about how good I am doing on losing this weight and everything. Then I went on down to one of the little shops in the food court area and one of the sales clerks who I have known for several years mentioned that he really noticed the changes in me and how well I was doing. As he was saying this I was looking at the candy. So I threw up my hands and looked up and said, "fine, I get your point, I will not eat candy today" God brought two very nice people to remind me of the hard work He and I have accomplished so that I didn't mess it up.
It's ashame I didn't listen yesterday. Let's just say sometimes I use the excuse of being a female to give me a reason to severly overeat!!! Yesterday I ended my day by eating a greek salad that could have fed three people, a fruit cup that 2 people could have eaten and a Michaelna's speghetti for dinner, left my second job, went and worked out and then promptly left there and stopped at KFC!!!! Got a chicken breast meal with green beans and cole slaw and demolished the chicken and biscuit (I never eat their biscuits), ate 1/2 the green beans and 3/4 of the cole slaw. This was all at 9:30pm last night!!!
The question is why?
God Bless,
Karen
It's ashame I didn't listen yesterday. Let's just say sometimes I use the excuse of being a female to give me a reason to severly overeat!!! Yesterday I ended my day by eating a greek salad that could have fed three people, a fruit cup that 2 people could have eaten and a Michaelna's speghetti for dinner, left my second job, went and worked out and then promptly left there and stopped at KFC!!!! Got a chicken breast meal with green beans and cole slaw and demolished the chicken and biscuit (I never eat their biscuits), ate 1/2 the green beans and 3/4 of the cole slaw. This was all at 9:30pm last night!!!
The question is why?
God Bless,
Karen
Friday, May 9, 2008
A Little Insight
Okay, another new eye-opening moment. If you know me well then you know my history. If you don't I will give you a quick overview:
My parents seperated when I was 7 months old, divorced when I was 1 1/2 and mom, my brother and I moved to Central Ohio when I was 5. In the time I was still in Dayton I saw my dad some but his new wife didn't like my brother and I. When I was 8 he came up to visit us for Christmas (the "new" wife was out of the picture by then) and stayed for a little while. The day after Christmas we took him to a little airport near my old house and he hugged us, kissed us, told us he would write and call as often as he could and then got in his little airplane and I never heard from him again until I was 25. I found him, wrote a letter, he wrote back once and that was it. So, 15 years later I have not heard from him again.
Okay, so why, you ask, did I explain all of that to you? Well, a lot of my struggle with my weight has to do with his promises and ultimate rejection. I have closed myself off from letting people get close to me so that they can't hurt and abandon me like the one person I was supposed to trust did.
So, onto my next revel. I LOVE TO READ. Are you wondering where I am going with this? Well, I will explain. I read Christian Romance Novels. I take them everywhere with me. I have one in my purse at all times. I even read at stoplights if I know the timing. Well, I was at work tonight and reading my latest novel and came across a paragraph that ties these two ramblings together. It is from a book by author Irene Brand and called "Made for Each Other". I will write the paragraph below and you will see the eye opening event for me.
Jesus had been rejected over and over, yet He had perserved and hadn't closed His heart to other people because His own family and peers wouldn't accept Him.
See where I am going with this? So many people rejected Christ and yet He still loved us enough to die on a cross for us. Yes, I have been rejected by some very important people in my life but I HAVE NOT been rejected by a lot more people then have rejected me. It has taken me 40 years to see this. But the biggest thing is that even if I am rejected by everyone here on earth (Lord willing that will never happen but...) I will NEVER be rejected by Christ!!!! He loves me no matter what happens here. That knowledge brings me to humble tears!!!
Thank you God for loving me. Thank you for showing me your love through your son and through those you have brought into my life when I open my eyes and accept that love.
God bless,
Karen
My parents seperated when I was 7 months old, divorced when I was 1 1/2 and mom, my brother and I moved to Central Ohio when I was 5. In the time I was still in Dayton I saw my dad some but his new wife didn't like my brother and I. When I was 8 he came up to visit us for Christmas (the "new" wife was out of the picture by then) and stayed for a little while. The day after Christmas we took him to a little airport near my old house and he hugged us, kissed us, told us he would write and call as often as he could and then got in his little airplane and I never heard from him again until I was 25. I found him, wrote a letter, he wrote back once and that was it. So, 15 years later I have not heard from him again.
Okay, so why, you ask, did I explain all of that to you? Well, a lot of my struggle with my weight has to do with his promises and ultimate rejection. I have closed myself off from letting people get close to me so that they can't hurt and abandon me like the one person I was supposed to trust did.
So, onto my next revel. I LOVE TO READ. Are you wondering where I am going with this? Well, I will explain. I read Christian Romance Novels. I take them everywhere with me. I have one in my purse at all times. I even read at stoplights if I know the timing. Well, I was at work tonight and reading my latest novel and came across a paragraph that ties these two ramblings together. It is from a book by author Irene Brand and called "Made for Each Other". I will write the paragraph below and you will see the eye opening event for me.
Jesus had been rejected over and over, yet He had perserved and hadn't closed His heart to other people because His own family and peers wouldn't accept Him.
See where I am going with this? So many people rejected Christ and yet He still loved us enough to die on a cross for us. Yes, I have been rejected by some very important people in my life but I HAVE NOT been rejected by a lot more people then have rejected me. It has taken me 40 years to see this. But the biggest thing is that even if I am rejected by everyone here on earth (Lord willing that will never happen but...) I will NEVER be rejected by Christ!!!! He loves me no matter what happens here. That knowledge brings me to humble tears!!!
Thank you God for loving me. Thank you for showing me your love through your son and through those you have brought into my life when I open my eyes and accept that love.
God bless,
Karen
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