So, I have missed a few days. I had a really good one from Sunday. My 11 year old niece, Anna!!! She is an amazing young lady. I am so excited that for some reason she wants to be around me whenever we are together. What a positive blessing she is!!
Monday was Monday but I am thankful about my meetings at OSU and my Behavioral Health meetings. I am looking forward to them helping me to become more of the person that God wants me to be even though they work with me on my spiritual beliefs.
Tuesday the positive was that things that went pretty good at work and that I was able to be at home last night.
Today, wow, trying to sort out my feelings on today. Today is the 12th anniversary of the World Trade Center and Pentagon attacks and the crash of flight 23 in Pennsylvania. Not a year goes by that I, along with everyone else in America, doesn't remember where they were and what they were doing on this day in 2001.
Today, I also got to volunteer at the Ronald McDonald House. It is a positive that there is a safe place for families to live while they are here for the extended treatment of their sick child. Emotionally, it was hard to think about them being here for that same reason. Positively I am blessed to have 16 healthy "nieces" and "nephews" and that I don't remember ever having to go there for myself.
I also found out that I did get the apartment on Broadway. This is another area that I am struggling with. The positive is that the apartment is only $595/month, I don't have a neighbor below me, the neighbor beside me only has a laundry wall connecting, it is right by Beulah Park so I can still have people over for the Fourth of July.
The part I am struggling with is that I feel like I am 46 years old, single and make decent money and yet I am losing my house to foreclosure, I filed bankruptcy earlier this year, my "new" car is still overheating and getting worse and the transmission slips. It just seems that I should not have financial problems. But I spend all my money on eating out because I am too big to cook in the kitchen and my refrigerator is broke so I only have a small one. Also, I am having to go from a 1230 sq ft house with a garage to a 700 sq ft apartment with no garage and very little storage. It just seems like I am going backwards.
I know I am blessed. I know that God has given me ample opportunity and the thing I need to make these changes. I just have to focus on the positives and stop spending the money that God has blessed me with. In a year or two I will then be able to buy a small home and go from there.
Okay, so, pondering the positives is a struggle but I know they are there so I will try. Thanks for listening (reading).
God bless,
Karen
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