One of the things I am working on is my core beliefs. The main one right now is that I am a failure. I struggle with finding the things I do well. I am supposed to write down even the little successes. Today was not one of the success days.
There are times at work that I am struggling to find things to do and then all of the sudden I have too much that has to be done in the same amount of time. Well, last night and this morning were the days when there is too much that has to be done. I had to get multiple quotes to Honda before lunch time. Well, I sent them to the Honda contact and then remembered that I didn't remove an internal sheet before I hit send. Tony was very upset. Then, later in the day he asked me for something and we just don't communicate well. I was so frustrated and he was frustrated. I just don't know how to change it. I truly don't want to be doing this job and haven't wanted to for awhile but I want to fulfill my commitment and I am thankful for a job. I am just so afraid that doing anything wrong will cause me to lose my job again before I have something else lined up.
Then, I went to the Grove City band concert tonight and couldn't fit in the seats. It was so embarrassing!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
So, there you go, the failure thoughts are far out weighing the successful thoughts today. Tomorrow is another day.
Thanks for any prayers.
Karen
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