More Prayer needed - AGAIN

Okay, I am struggling big time right now. This seems to be my worst battle with eating that I have had so far in this journey and if you have been following my post's you know that this has to be bad!!!!

Saturday afternoon I ate 2 helpings of egg salad, pasta salad, a cupcake and more items. Then I went to my bosses house and ate shredded chicken, potato salad, cheese and a lot more stuff as well. And before that ate McDonalds. Sunday I ate a HUGE salad at Bob Evans, more McDonald's and many items when I got home. Monday I went to a Mexican restaruant and ate as many chips and salsa as I wanted plus the 4 enchilada dinner. Yesterday I made a mandarin orange cake and ate TWO big bites then I ate another one today and I had 3 barbecued chicken wings/riblets (don't ask) and a vegetarian egg roll and a small spoonful of rice.

Those are only some examples of what I ate. Oh yea, I forgot the milkshake and cheeseburger and fries from Steak and Shake last Friday and the icecream cone dipped in chocolate from Dairy Queen Sunday or Saturday.

See why I need prayer. I am ready to cry. People tell me that sometimes you have to treat yourself or have times like that but this has been going on for too long and I need to keep on track. I can't let things be an excuse to overeat. Today I am going to the Shining Star reception where there will be more fried food and then tonight is the final party for the Biggest Loser at the club with all kinds of food. ARRRRRGGGGGGGHHHHHHHH.

Yes, I know there is a lot of stuff going on in my life, but again, this is where I need to continue to turn to God and not food. I have used food for 40 years. I know it won't happen overnight but man this is discouraging right now. I know God is there and giving me all the tools I need but I seem to be acting like the spoiled child who wants to do what she wants and not listen to her parent who knows better.

Please pray.
Thanks,
God Bless,
Karen

Biggest Loser final weigh-in

Tonight is the final weigh-in for the Biggest Loser. This session was fun but not as fun as the first round. I think the initial novelty was one of the things that made it more exciting.

I am sure that I went up from last Wednesday. I didn't eat great this weekend again. I had a bridal shower and a 40th birthday party to go to on Saturday. I ate way too much!!! I had fun though. : ^ )

Well, I will let you know how it goes.

Have a great week,
God Bless,
Karen

P.S. - I gained 3 pounds since last week so I ended the Biggest Loser with only losing 10 pounds. Pretty discouraging but things like this happen. At least I lost 10 and not gained.

In Memorium

I just found out that my friend I mentioned a few weeks ago went home to be with the Lord yesterday morning. There are so many of us who will miss her smile, her enthusiam and her love!!! This is the last picture I have of Bert when she went to my house for the 4th of July fireworks. It was just days before she took the turn towards heaven.

My thoughts and prayers go out to the rest of the family that was left here. May God continue to bless each one of you with special memories of a wonderful lady and the knowledge that most of you will get to see her again!!

I love you Bert and will miss you until we meet in Heaven.

God Bless,

Karen

Possible Opportunity

I just wanted to let you know that there is a possible opportunity for this journey to go to an all new level. I don't want to really talk about it right now but if you could just pray. I want this opportunity to glorfy God and then maybe help someone as well. I will keep you posted.

Thanks for your prayers.
God Bless,
Karen

A fun evening at the Gym

I wanted to let you all know how amazing it is to have wonderful friends to workout with. I went to the gym tonight and Craig pretty much killed us in Bootcamp. I thought I was going to die. It was hard but whenever I am done I realize how worth the effort it is.

Then Lisa, Jamie, Anna Mary and I went to the pool. I haven't had that much fun in awhile!!! We laughed, we played in the water, we threatened to throw Craig in the pool (that was the funnest part). I even had a chance to talk seriously with one of the girls. How amazing is that? There are so many times when I complain about things but when I stop and look at what God has done for me through this journey I find I am so blessed.

Just wanted to tell you all that. Thanks for the continued support and prayers - you are truly loved by me.

God Bless,
Karen

I've been eliminated...

Well, I was finally emlinated on Wednesday from the Biggest Loser competition. I actually gained 4 pounds in the week.

Pretty frustrating but there are a lot of things going on right now and I am still working on not using food as a comfort/escape. Sometimes I wish that I was there already but I know it has only been since October and it will take some time. I know that I will have these times for the rest of my life. The proper response will be to just accept it happened, don't beat myself up about it. Pray and then get back on the wheel. Actually, pray is the first step in this then the others.

I am so thankful to have the special people in my life though so that is great!!!

God Bless,
Karen

Sad/Happy times

Have you ever been so happy for someone yet personally wanted to sob your eyes out? There is a wonderful friend from church who was diagnosed with cancer a few months ago. The doctors told her that if she didn't take chemo then she would probably only have a few months to live and if she took the chemo it would probably be less than 2 years. She opted for taking the chemo but it seems that God has other plans than the doctors.


She has taken a turn for the worse and the way things sound it doesn't look like it will be very long before she goes home to be with the Lord. That is the happy part for her. She will get to spend eternity in heaven!!! What an amazing thing!!!! She will not have to be in pain any more and knowing her, she will be having everyone up there singing patriotic songs and wearing red, white and blue.


For us it is amazingly sad. I can't begin to know what her family is feeling right now but I am sure it is sadness for the potential loss of this wonderful lady. For me, it is the loss of someone who has been one of my biggest cheerleaders during this weightloss journey. When I didn't think I would be able to finish the original program she stepped up and made sure that I would be able to. Whenever she sees me she asks me how it is going and when I tell her the pounds lost her face just lights up.
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I started this post yesterday but was too emtional to finish it. So I will now. The last thing I wanted to do last night was go to the gym and workout. I didn't want to be around anyone and didn't want to deal with my weight issue. But I went anyway because if my friend found out that I had missed working out because I was sad about her she would have yelled at me big time. So, I went and I worked out. I didn't stay as long as I normally do but I did the class and some cardio before the class. I will be back tonight.

Thanks for listening.
God Bless,
Karen

God answers another prayer

Well, at 8:10pm est last night I weighed in and officially hit the 100 pound weight loss mark from October 4, 2007. I weighed 293.8 pounds. I keep telling people that I weigh 393 because I didn't ever think I would be in the 200's. Now I am there and it feels so weird!!!

I had a couple of people praying last night and through hard work and God I was able to lose 2 pounds. Now, I am sure they are water weight but I will do my best to make it permanent and continue to go down.

Wow, I am not in the 300's anymore and I have lost 100 pounds!!!!! I can't believe it.

We do this one exercise in our classes that while you are doing sit-ups the person holding your feet is doing pushups. I actually was able to do real situps yesterday. I did like 5 in a row and came all the way up. Craig was very happy that I could do them. He is a great trainer and trys to encourage but for him to single you out after class and tell you that he was excited to see you be able to do something you haven't done before really made it even more special.

Thanks for all your prayers. I am at 40% of my weight loss goal. That is almost 1/2 way.

Have a blessed day,
Karen

Just checking in

Okay, I didn't make it the entire day on a liquid diet last Wednesday. But I still lost 2 pounds at the weigh-in.

I was almost good for 4 solid days off from Thursday, July 3rd until yesterday. What I did wrong was try to get rid of some items in my cabinets. I had a 1/2 bag of chocolate chips, a 1/2 bag of almonds and a peanut butter cookie mix. I decided to create this concoction. Didn't know how it would taste. Unfortunatly it was an amazing combination and I ate WAY TO MANY of the cookies. I had maintained my weight loss through Saturday at the gym. I don't want to weigh in tonight. I will just work out hard and go from there.

Do you ever sometimes say things that you mean as a joke but then the more you think about it the more you realize that it could have hurt someone's feelings? The other day I invited a couple of people from the gym to my house to watch fireworks on Friday night. Since all of the people who have come in the past have been from church and the girls from the gym enjoy going out to clubs and stuff I jokingly told them they had to be on their best behavior. The more I thought about it the more I feel bad. If someone said that to me I would feel like they only liked me on certain conditions. I apologized to one of the girls and will to the other but I need to remember that the tongue is the most deadly muscle in the body and I need to stop and think before I talk.

ARRRRRGGGGGGHHHHHH.

Well, I will let you all know how weigh-in goes on Wednesday. Have a great week.

God Bless,
Karen

Today is Weigh-in Day

Well, when I left last night I was even with my weight last week. I need to lose a couple of pounds at least. Craig said that if I didn't lose 7 pounds he would eliminate me. (This was last week). Well, I obviously won't lose 7 pounds today but I will do my best. He challenged all of us to do a liquid diet today. I will see how it goes. I didn't promise him anything and as soon as I am done with weigh-in I will eat real food.

So far I have had a "Slim-Fast" type of shake. Kind of tasted like Chocolate Milk. Not bad. I brought one for lunch and afternoon snack. I am not going to push it so if it doesn't agree with me I will eat something but it won't hurt to try one time. It won't be a habit though so don't worry.

Pray for my family. I have a cousin who is having major back surgery again today. She is only 40 and is pretty scared. There is also an unspoken with my brother/mom/sister-in-law. It is pretty serious so that is really important.

Thanks for your encouragment, prayers and well wishes. I know God is really doing amazing things in my life and though it still scares me to death, it is exciting too.

God Bless,
Karen